After everything happened about 3 days ago, my thought was completely changed.
And the main reason out of this was: The end of the world。
Well, this might, or maybe it really sounds stupid, being inferred by another "End of the World"
Thu, I have sensed it. Why would me, a useless, worthless human(?) get this information.
Why did i even started the research.
Maybe it was all decided? In some kind of Books? like Bibles?
If that's so, what is my mission? What shall i do?
I have not yet obtain the answer to it.
So far, all I will do is Observe. Calculate, Predict, and be a good observer, or a good listener, listen to the screams and begging for life that is.
So far, as I gathered the information about the Judgement Day, which is going to be at "21, May 2011" according to those Bible's researcher or decoder or whatever they called.
Based on the Stories in Bibles, it reflect the reality.
Or if we can say it this way: What written in Bible is the vision of god, in the world of god. Which also reflected on our world.
The main part of the article and its conclusion was made according on the Noah's Flood.
God had gave them 7 Days to prepare. In another part of it, there was hints about "One day equal to 1000 Years"
And with some other prove, clue from the bible, they had found the date "21, May 2011"
It is not "The End of the World", it reflected as the day they closed the ark.
Which meant as "The Beginning Of The End"
Mankind will suffer for 5 months before they vanish. That made the End of the World is going to be 5 months later after the beginning that is Oct 21, 2011.
Being curious, I had done some research on the dates, either it was an occasion、it happened.
70 Days before May 21, The earthquake (and tsunami) happened, on Japan.
Thus i have used 7000Years, 700 Months, 70 Days, and 7 Hours.
700 Years before- The Flood
700 Months before- Smog/ Killer Fog (London)
70 Days before- Earthquake (Japan)
7 Hours before- Well, it haven't yet happen, but if it is real, if something is going to happen, I will say this will be either overheat which seems quite hard to happen, so i made it "Either Volcano, or Flood" Look at the weather nowadays, Where the rain had gone to? Are they gathering? So to make another big disaster?
If that really happen, on 20 or 21 May 2011, Then i can confirm that the End of the World is really going to happen.
And that will not only be disaster, it will be torture.. The temperature will keep increasing, until all of the mankind cross their limits.
What worst in all of this is, that was my dream.. =3
Since when i am small i had thought that i have 2 dreams,
One is to make people around me not to get sad.
Another one is be a lucky generation to observe the trillion years once "End of The World"
All i can do, and all i Will do, is to observe.. Who will survive and who will not.
I will not give any help as I Couldn't do any help from the beginning.
I call warn people to be careful, but that will just torture them more,
Putting pressure and make them live and suffer longer that is.
I wish, hope and pray, so that this is really going to be true.
I am not going to die, no until i become the last mankind in this world, or not until i got stabbed by someone near me.
The stories goes on, and I will survive.
Because The Readers Don't get Involve in the Story.
Emotionless Soul and the Burnt Moon..
Both were meant to be gone.
A kid does not cry.
And I was, and will never be alone.
Even ash is my company.
Fate will not control me.
I am Fate itself..
Stabbed by the sword of Gold,
Drank the blood of Sun.
That was what suffer mean.
It is not just Pain.
It is Sadness and Loneliness.
Why could it came to me..
Why I was the chosen one..
Why does the moon burnt...
Why did the soul dead...
The story will never end.
The story had just begin.
And the beginning, is just like an ending of all the other stories..
Endless Story will tell, What had killed the fate..
Day after day, an eternity loop.
I live as me for long long time.
Being happy, being sad.
Nothing is true but all was false.
Yes, Unreality..
Believe in the way you do, and achieve what you want to.
That is the way to live.
I wanted something i don't need.
I knew i won't need it but still I looked for it.
Hope, and Love..
I don't need those..
But I want..
I am a person, who shouldn't exist from the beginning.
I live as a nonexistent.
Being small and hide under the shadow.
Being coward and hide in the crowd..
That is My Way..
We work in the shadow, to Serve our Believe.
I'll make it clear this time..
Thus i don't expect the 'person' to read this blog, but still will I tell..
I want people to care me.
That is the reason I keep talking i am unlucky.
BUT! If, if I have become lucky, and someone turned unlucky.
I wouldn't want that to happen.
I'll be unlucky, I will keep being a Sad guy.
Just to give chance, for those who need it.
I know i Won't die. So I will bear the pain and the suffer.
Once it is over, I hope you can be by my side..
It is not that we don't trust each other.
It is just that, we find ourselves hard to believe in each other..
But still we do trust each other in the bottom of the heart..
Still, we keep make reasons and chances for each other, so that we can find a fair reason for us to trust..
Both of us knew the ending..
What were we fighting for then..
If there is any good ending exist in me, I would go straight to it.
And now, what i have saw was: 1 Good Ending, and unlimited Bad Ending.
I want you, Only you..
I am good to others, To tell them how blessed are you.. =3
Be happy always, I will take your unlucky and sadness, so just be happy.. =3
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Emo, Being sad, Being hopeless...
Yea, that is my world..
And that is my style..
In the shadow being alone, Knowing no one will ever realize my exist...
Still do I prayed...
Hoped that someone will listen to my Story,
Wished that someone will share their Story with me,
Prayed that someone will always be by my side..
But that is just too soft..
The World Isn't a easy place, It is not a place for us to Sit down and Enjoy.
Lucky and Unlucky Occur, Happiness and Sadness exist.
People encounter all of them, one by one..
Like the Sky, it is endless..
Until you fall into darkness, and you pray for another chance, to be created...
That is us.. We give hopes to ourselves, knowing that it will not be granted..
Still do we pray, still do we hope, And we realized that it was just a dream..
And we realized that we had waked up.. Waked up from the happiness.
We Fight.. To gain back the "Happiness" that we once saw in the dream..
We Fight, those who fight until the end, They gained..
They gained long searched peace.. But they had lost.. Yes, they had lost to the fate..
They got their "Happiness". They had been given the chance to dream again.
But they lost their time, they lost their youths...
In the end, They only gained the right to fall into Darkness,
An Eternal Sleep which lead them to Eternal Peace..
We knew that, We said we DON'T want that..
But still we fight, Still we wanted to gain the "Happiness" that everyone has been looking for..
Hopeless Humans...
There wasn't happiness to begin with...
It is just a dream..
You can live in any way you like..
You have the right to pick the "happiness" up from the ground..
It is all over the ground!!
Just sit down!! Just lay down.. Close your eyes and you will see..
Dreams... That is what we called "Happiness"
It do exist, But it doesn't hold long..
It is NORMAL to be hurt.
It is NORMAL to be unlucky.
It is NORMAL to be cursed..
It is NORMAL for someone to pass away..
It is NORMAL for you to Cry Out Loud!
It is NORMAL, normal for one to gain what they seek after they sacrificed that much..
Pardon them, Let Them Go..
Don't Make Regrets for them..
Stop blaming the sky, for being unfair..
The Sky Couldn't do anything as well..
The Star is high up, but it doesn't do anything as well..
This is the world..
It was, and is Pitch Black..
We, Living Units Shines..
We glow lights in the Pitch Black World..
But! It was, and IS Pitch Black..
Trust yourself.. And don't waste your life..
You have your way of thinking and living, So Do I!! =3
Accept everything around you, You will be blessed..
Not by God, but by me..
Wake up, You Doesn't Exist from the beginning... I Said That..
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Yea, i have been away for a long long time since i have no mood* to write any stuffs..
Not just here, but same to another blog of mine.. =/
Well, nobody is following here i suppose >.> So I'll make this my 2nd blog =3
This will be the 2nd blog of mine which i will post blogs or articles in English =3
Good to hear that huh? Those who don't / couldn't understand Japanese ..
*claps*
Alright, so I am going to re-introduce myself, only I will enter the topic, in the next post yea..
*Cough* x2
Good evening to Whoever is reading this..
Since I have decided to make this blog closer to My reality, I will specific my age, gender, and location (just school Xp)
*Cough twice again*
So, Hi, I am a Malaysian. To be right, a Chinese who born and live in Malaysia.
Able to speak in 4 Languages that is Chinese, English, Japanese and Malay.
For someone who don't know who am I,
I study in Catholic High School, Petaling Jaya, Selangor.
And if you want to know more, just leave some comment =3
I will provide you with requested information after you tell me who are you.
Always Tell your name before you ask for others =3 yea, manner
Nicks of mine: Silentmoonxx, Gdragonx, Hayashi Yasuyuki
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Color, What A Wonderful Creation...
With Color, We Are Able To See...
With Color, There is An Improvement In Arts...
Color, Brought us Hopes..
And Unconsciously, It Help Mankind to Determine Good and Bad...
Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Indigo, Violet...
Magenta, Cyan, Yellow..
White, Gray, Black...
When We See The Combination Of The 7 Colors, It Brought us Hopes..
But When We See Black Scene, We Will Think That Something Bad Is Going To Happen..
Why?
What Does Black Meant To You?
Vice-Versa, What Does White Meant To You?
Do You Also Think That Black Is Bad Symbol and White Is The Color Of Justice?
Don't You Think.. It is Inverted?
Why?
Now, You See..
What Make White?
Red Blue Green, Mix Together..
Its Not Only White.. Its EVERY COLORS...
But What About Black?
Black Is Nothing..
Nothing At All..
But Does Nothing Mean Bad?
Does 'Having Everything' Mean Good?
Why Can't You Think Like This?
White, Which Included Everything.. Isn't That Good..
Its Neutral.. It Contain Everything.. Good, and Bad...
Justice, and Evil..
Black?
Black Is Nothing..
Gain Nothing Loss Nothing..
Its Pure.. Its Innocent..
Its Like an Empty Vessel..
So There Isn't Any Bad?
Hmn.. If You Must Find A "Bad" From Them..
It's White..
Well.. Simple.. We Can't Say Something Innocent Bad Right?
Its Like A Baby Who Know Nothing Broke Your Glasses..
You Will Angry, But Just A While..
Did You Treat BLACK Like That..
Black.. Is Even Pure Than The BABY...
But White Was, and Is Complicated...
Its Like A Old Man..
Experienced A Lot.. Ya.. I Mean A LOT..
A Whole Life...
But There Isn't A Fixed 'Truth'...
Every Here and There are 'Truth'..
Black Can be Bad, As Well As Good..
The Same Goes To White..
Look At The World Once Again..
Do You Think A bit Difference From Half An Hour Before?
Get Going.. You Have Life..
Don't Think Too Much About It..
You're Not The First Person In Confuse..
Believe In White And Black..
They Will Lead You To The Answer That You're Seeking...
---Explanation End---
Every Time You Think Of A Thing, Is There Really A "Truth or False"?
It Is Not Weird We Heard That "Nothing Is Absolute"...
The Same Goes To "Real and False Don't Exist"...
Why?
Here Is A Situation..
"I Talk Only The Truth"
Acceptable, The Person Talk Only The Truth,
And The Statement He Just Said is a Truth..
But, How About This?
"I Talk Only The False" or "I Am Telling a Lie Now"..
Then, It Can't be A True Statement..
If You Are Lying, Then You Doesn't Talk The False..
If You Doesn't Talk The False, You Are Not Lying..
If You Are Lying, Then The Statement Is A False Itself..
And It Goes A Whole Way Round, Form A Circuit..
Anyway, We Wouldn't Know What Is The Exact Truth..
If The Statement is Real, Is The Prove Real?
If The Prove is a Fake, Then The Statement Will Turn Out To Be A Fake..
Who Can Prove That What We See Is Truth?
We Can Be Live In Illusions all Up Until Now?
Who Told You That What We See Is Real?
What If It's Not?
We Alone Wouldn't Know Whats Real and Whats Not..
People Lie..
Human Do LIE..
They Lie To Get Something Better For Themselves..
So, What Is Truth?
Even Liar Doesn't Know The Truth..
Because Liar Had Been Lied To..
Anytime Later, You Might Realize That..
"You're The Only One Who Doesn't Know The Truth.."
And Then Think About It Again..
Is That Truth?
---Don't Think Too Much---
---Take What People Give---
---And Give What You Don't Want--
Now, have you ever wondered about it?
Do you Even Exist?
“Why Not?” “I’m Here and Reading all these stuffs, Of course I DO exist..”
Now, Why do you think like that? Why Can’t Everything just a Fake?
The Memories you have even just One Second ago,
Might be just a pre-made ‘Memories’ which inserted into ‘You’, a vessel?
But You May Think Like This..
Yup, You do exist…
Now, when you are reading This…
But Tomorrow.. Today will become a Past..
And the Past mean Memories..
And then, again.. Do You Exist Now?
There is No Answer To It...
With ‘Future’ Technology, They Might be Able to Direct a ‘Memory Chip’ Into you..
You Might Just be a White Rat Anytime, Even Now...
What About This?
“You Are A Test Object, Your body had been Built Up by Chemicals, You Have No Memories.”
“They Putted You into A Visual World, and Insert A Memory Chip into you…”
“They Wanted to Observe What Will You Do in The Situation… “
Or Something Like This?
"You Are Actually Dreaming"
"You Can Be Wake Up Any Second, Yesterday Was Just An Illusion.."
You Never Know..
Yup.. You Never Exist, but Yet You Are Here Yourself..
Now, Here Is The Game...
A Game That Will Never End..
"Find Out The Truth, Do You Even Exist?"
This Doesn't Ask You To Suicide Or What..
It Doesn't Ask You To Get Others Idea..
Just That, Live For Your Life, Live For Revealing The Truth..
Live For Enjoy The Life..
Here is Some Suggestion..
"Find A Place To Be Alone.. Think About It.. How To Live.. "
"How To Reveal The Truth While You Still Have The Chance (Alive)..."
Well Then..
---GAME START---